09 July 2009 @ 07:45 am

Last night was quite scary!
My friend Josh and I were just sitting on the bed closest to the telly
looking over our loot from Disc Reply,when someone knocked on the
door. We didn't answer it, because it was after midnight and had seen
enough horror movies to know much better than to open the door. We
also don't have a peep hole so it just added to the list of reasons not to
open the door.

I had thought that someone had gotten the wrong door by mistake, because
no one knocked again for a long time. We also started to talk more quietly
just incase we were too loud. Then all of a sudden, less than 5 minutes
after the knocking, someone hit the door hard and sharply once.

I jumped a little from that one. I handed Josh the gun and turned off the
lights. I peered out the window, no one was there and the car was still
in tact. I opened the window wider and still didn't see anyone. No sooner
did I back way from the window there was a loud boom that shock the entire
room. Now I was scared.

"I am sorry but I am calling the police," I said as smoothly as I could.
Josh's eyes were wide, and though he tried not to, fear had taken over.
"Yeah, that's a good idea." he replied.

I called the police. I dentified myself, the sistuation and so on.
The dispatch stayed on the phone with me the entire time, but
I couldn't get my body to stop from uncontrollably shacking.
I was trully scared and in my mind kept thinking, "I want my Daddy."

The police showed up and there were people, young kids, wandering
all around the place. Infact one was headed off with a frig. I think they
were going to rob us. I am not sure, no one was taken in so...
I have no idea what I do know is that I was trully scared. We were
trapped in a room with the only way out blocked. Scarry stuff.

Otherwise this trip has rocked!

Tags: braidwood, chicago 2009, il, motel, scarry stuff!, the oddessy

Current Location: Braidwood, IL

Current Mood:

awake

Current Music: Follow the Light's Ryan Adams

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05 July 2009 @ 11:45 am

Greetings... Hey! I am Not Dead!

I am sorry everyone!! I have been quite the busy girl!
Currently I am in Braidwood, IL!!! Man it's great to be "home"!
The Fourth was a wee bit of a washout but it was lovely nonetheless!

I will try to be a little better about posting while I am here and I will start
staying up late to read through the more recent entries that you all have posted!

A couple of things I want to mention.
First off, I have had 3 photographs selected to be published on a travel website.
Two of them have already been published, while the third one is still waiting to be approved.
The sad news is that all of them were discovered via my flickr account and my subscription has
espired and I am unable to upload all of the photographs I have been taking as of late, which
are more than 2,000 photographs!

I am currently working on a movie project, a television pilot concept and a fashion line.
It's all very exciting!!!

The good news/ba news is that I was put on what is called a "Final" at my job,
The Red Box of Doom aka Target for being 6-11 minutes late every few days.
Pretty much I will be let go, or fired, any day now. This will be a hardship and blessing at
the same time. On one hand I need to leave that place, but I won't give them the satisfaction
of quitting. I would like to be eligable for unemployeement. That's going to be a HUGE pay
cut and jobs are sparse at best in the Creek. However, it will open up for all the side projects
I am working on and I think I will feel better about myself and not quite so abused as I feel at
Target.

I am mostly sad about leaving all of the people who work for me and with me. They are the
one's who make my job amazing. I love watching their growth as employees and people
and I hope that they continue to grow even after I am gone. For those very people, are the
reason I remain with Target. I feel like I have let them down by being a person who is rarely
on time but more than willing to work long, long hours and never excepts less than the best
that can be done. If I were a timely person, I wouldn't be losing my job.

It's ok and I will be ok!!! I will go out on top of my game and ensure that my excellence will
one day over shadow my inablility to arrive on time.

Well, I am off to the great wide open!!!
Go Cubs Go!

And Lizz if your reading this, shoot me a text (my number is on my facebook)!
We'll have to get together sometime this week!!!

xxox,

Bren

Tags: art, chicago 2009, oddessy, photo journalism, red box of doom, target

Current Location: Braidwood, IL

Current Mood:

bouncy

Current Music: Chicago Cubs Day Game!

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01 June 2009 @ 10:25 pm

meme

I do have a lot, and I mean A LOT to blog about but I lack the time so I present a meme in the mean time!

1. Name:
2. Birthday:
3. Where do you live:
4: What are you studying/What are you working as:
5. What makes you happy:
6. What are you listening to now/have listened to last:
7. What is particularly good/bad about my LJ:
8. An interesting fact about you:
9. Are you in love/have a crush at the moment:
10. Favorite place to be:
11. Favorite lyric:
12. Best time of the year:
13. Weirdest food you like:

RECOMMEND
1. A film:
2. A book:
3. A song:
4: A band:

FANDOM
1. Favorite Fandom:
2. OTP/OT3:
3. Icon/Fic Journal (so I can join):

PLUS
1. One thing you like about me:
2. Two things you like about yourself:
3. Put this in your lj so I can tell you what I think of you?

Tags: meme

Current Location: Cave Creek, Arizona

Current Mood:

chipper

Current Music: the news

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12 May 2009 @ 12:29 am

People.

Some people piss me off.
Like, guys, seriously, remind me not to include people that I am not completly sure
about into my inner circle where they get a kick out of making my friends feel like fools.
Yeah, not cool.
Also, remind me to never take them to places that I love, just so that I can no longer go there.
Drama.

Blah.
I had a killer day at the thrift store!!!
I will post my buys tomarrow!!!

I love my LJ friends.

xxox,
Bren

Tags: drama, friends, random, target

Current Location: Cave Creek, Arizona

Current Mood:

pissed off

Current Music: OK GO - Here It Goes Again

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10 May 2009 @ 04:55 pm

I AM GOING TO WALK 60 MILES IN 3 DAYS!!!!

Please Help Me Reach My $2,300 Goal!!!
Search my full name:

Brenda J Anshanslin

Please donate, even if it's only $1.
Each little bit helps out in finding a cure or new treatment!!!

I am very excited to be doing this!!!

Help me reach my goal for the Arizona Breast Cancer 3-Day!

Tags: breast cancer walk, mission 101 list

Current Location: Cave Creek, Arizona

Current Music: Welcome to England - Tori Amos

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29 April 2009 @ 07:56 am

Socialism at it's finest.

Pontiac Is Dead; Is The Corvette Next?
What Detroit Will Build (and Won't) In Its Next Chapter
by Rex Roy | AOL Autos
Posted: 29 April 2009

In remarks made in March about the auto industry, President Obama said, "We cannot, we must not, and we will not let our auto industry simply vanish." This is positive news for many, but it may actually signal the end of the consumer-driven American automotive industry.

Depending on how active the Obama administration chooses to be regarding the operation of General Motors and Chrysler (the government already forced out GM CEO Rick Wagoner), bureaucrats may restrict the types of cars these two manufacturers sell in the post bail out future. Government leaders such as Nancy Pelosi have already voiced the opinion that Americans should drive smaller, more efficient vehicles. Conditions on the bail out funds may be the vehicle used to force GM and Chrysler to build only what Washington wants them to build. Additionally, changing emissions regulations will force Ford Motor Company and other producers to follow suit.

More information will surface, so it is too soon to accurately predict what GM and Chrysler may look like when they emerge from the Obama team's restructuring program. However, one can assess and offer educated conjecture about how President Obama's actions may affect the cars arriving in showrooms of the future.

( Read the rest of the disturbing article here... )

Tags: america, cars, gm, obama, socialism

Current Location: Cave Creek, Arizona

Current Mood:

disappointed

Current Music: Days of Our Lives

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26 April 2009 @ 12:43 pm

Follow Me...

I love The Soup!!!

Well you can follow me on twitter!

I am Cadillac_Creek!!!

I Win....

So I bidded on a German coat that I have coveted for at least 5 years.
Someone I know used to wear it all the time and I just loved the color (olive green) and the fact that is was from Germany and
the cut, that is was from the German army and yeah, I just loved that bloody coat. He gave me his camo version of the coat.
I love it but... yeah it's not THE coat and... it doesn't fit.

So last night I happened to be on eBay and for fun searched for it. There is was. For $21.50 in a size small/medium.
I bid on it and this smorning I awoke to an e-mail saying I had won!!!
My joy, bittersweet, when I realized that it was being shipped from Germany, by a man named Franz (fitting)
for twenty bucks!!! Making my coat $41!!! Damn.

Here's the coat I won!

One Crazy Weekend...

Well, unless your on my Myspace (i_am_a_beautiful_lie) you haven't seen the pictures from the night.
I will be posting them soon. But the Cubbies are still playing and I have some laundry to knock out.
However, Christina, Ian and I had a blast!

I finally got to ride the mechanical bull!!!
(cross that one off of my Mission 101 list!!)
I am still in some pain from that.
I have a blood clot in my thumb, scratched on my tummy
and I am all sore in my legs (from dancing) and kneck and arms from the blood bull.
Bloody fantastic good time. The bar we went to plays fantastic music!!!

After the bar closed, Ian and Christina wanted to stay out and sober up.
I only knew of 3 places that were open. Denny's, Club Transalvannia and Sweet Tooth Billiards.
No one wanted Denny's, which sucked because I was starving!
I didn't even bother on the goth club. Christina would have freaked out there.
This left us with the pool hall.

I had been warned that it wasn't very cool.
Once again, he was right.
It was pretty much emptty (but it was 3 AM)
This place was weird, for a pool hall.
All the tables had bright blue felt, and the one we were on played ok.
Instead of bar tables and stools against the wall, there were resturant booths.
When you first walk in there are two bright white sofa's and a table. One of
the sofa's had an African American man sleeping on it, not weird at all for some one to
just be sleeping on a sofa in the middle of a poolhall.

In a far back corner were some people playing poker.

The bright side. The place was really clean, the house cues were still pretty new,
so they hadn't been too abused. The table was super cheap and they served REAL food.
I had the best ham sandwich. Complete with pavolone cheese, lett, tom, onions and mayo.
I got a soda and a bag of chips... not a total loss.

Honestly though, I'll stick to River City. However, if your looking to sober up, Sweet Tooth's
Ham sandwich is aces. Oh but ah, be prewarned. This place doesn't sell alchol so it really
brightly lite. I am also told that it's a kid hang out. Maybe that's because it's located next to Great
Skate (roller skating) which is what we'll be doing next week!

Go Cubbies!!!
Sidney Crosby is SEXY
and love to all!

xxox,
Bren

Tags: bar, ebay, fashion, mission 101 list, poolhall junkie, random, telly, twitter

Current Location: Cave Creek, Arizona

Current Mood:

tired

Current Music: The Chicago Cubs on WGN Television

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25 April 2009 @ 06:23 pm

Just...

On My Mind...

It's really hard being myself. I am never not who I am and what I am.
I never back down from what I believe in and I surround myself with amazing and diverse people.
However, last week someone told me that people tollerate me.

It was the most damning word anyone could have ever used.
I would rather hear hate, can't stand, think I am stupid a cunt whatever.
Because to be tollerated is to be used.

I have thought really long and hard all week about what it means, and rather it's true or not.
I have concluded that the person was right.
I see how people can barely stand me.
They assume so much about me and they assume that they know all about me and that I keep nothing for just me.

I would much prefer you not associate yourself with me.
I don't want to be tollerated. That's a dark grey area.
It's so close to black that it may as well be.

Ask yourself, why do you hang out with me?
Then ask yourself what you think about me.
If there are a lo of negitive words in that thought process then please,
disappear from my circle.

I don't care for fake people.
I don't want that kind of "friend".

-End Statement-

Flickr...

I uploaded some new pictures!!!
Here are a few samples and links to the sets!

RenFest 2009 See the set here:
http://www.flickr.com/photos/cadillac_creek/sets/72157617232516042/

Northern Arizona Winter 2007
http://www.flickr.com/photos/cadillac_creek/sets/72157617152465665/

Sprint Cup November 2008

Tags: flickr, friends, nascar, photo journalism, random, rant, road trip

Current Location: Cave Creek, Arizona

Current Mood:

sleepy

Current Music: South Park

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22 April 2009 @ 12:18 pm

My Unfinished Book Update

My Lack of Progress...

I honestly believe that I am never going to complete my book.
I think the only way it can be done is if I lock myself in some remote cabin with no internet and the only things I have with me are my Newport 100's, some red wine, Mountain Dew, my lap top, notebook and pen and iPod.

I think it's the only way it's ever going to be completed.

In the mean time. I give you 10 songs from the very long play list that inspires the writing of my book.

(In all randomness)

Under My Thumb - The Rolling Stones
Story of My Life - Social Distortion
Sexy Boy - Air
Maps - Yeah Yeah Yeahs
Never Dream Alone - Ashlee Simpson
I am A Hustler - Cassidy
Violet Hill - Coldplay
A Well Respected Man - The Kinks
Confetti - The Lemonheads
Silver Lining - Rilo Kiley

Bonus Tack
Swing Life Away - Rise Against

LISTEN BELOW....

Tags: books, mix tape, music, the sexton, writer's block

Current Location: Cave Creek, Arizona

Current Mood:

sleepy

Current Music: Some Time Around Midnight - The Airbourn Toxic Event

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12 April 2009 @ 09:47 pm

I Know...

I am really late and all but...

HAPPY EASTER Y'ALL!!!

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09 April 2009 @ 11:04 am

Music Makes the People Come Together ... Over Me...

"I don't mean it in a bad way but I think Kurt Cobain and grunge took the fun out of rock and roll."

- The Killers frontman Brandon Flowers

This is the discussion between myself (PhxRoadRunners) and my friend Domino (Spoonman3050)

How does everyone else feel???

Spoonman3050:
no, he brought the fun back into
Spoonman3050:
he brought it back to the people
Spoonman3050:
like punk
Phxroadrunners: I think it evolved the music...
Spoonman3050:
Punk was fun because it music for the blue collard guy
Phxroadrunners: However, I understand what Flowers is talking about, he's kind of like the Cure and grunge nearly killed that kind of rock
Spoonman3050:
grunge, they didnt have great lives, so they wrote music about what they could relate to, not just fast cars and nailing bitches
Phxroadrunners: Oh, hair metal just needs to die!
Spoonman3050:
whos like the cure?
Phxroadrunners: I LOVE the CURE!!!!
Phxroadrunners: you don't?!
Spoonman3050:
no, you said hes kind of like the cure
Spoonman3050:
I never really listened to them, from i remember or what i think they were, not a huge fan
Phxroadrunners: Oh the Killers music has a 80s feel to it
Phxroadrunners: I enjoy several new wave bands/groups. It's it's own thing like grunge is. What I can't stand in 85% of the "post-grunge" rock. It's so cookie cutter.
Phxroadrunners: and all the cookies are circles
Spoonman3050:
I never liked new wave that much
Spoonman3050:
i didnt really like No-wave either
Spoonman3050:
like sonic youth
Spoonman3050:
didnt really care for them
Spoonman3050:
its not bad, just not what I would want to listen to
Phxroadrunners: what is no-wave... oh really. I loved Sonic Youth very diffrent, however, they were so diffrent that I can see how they didn't really reach the masses
Phxroadrunners: The Pixies were on VH-1 version of 120 Minutes last night, classic.
Spoonman3050:
i dont like the pixies really, just a few songs, but overall i could careless to listen to them
Spoonman3050:
I know they were inportant
Phxroadrunners: Well, they also played Pretty Vacant by the Sex Pistols.
Your message was not sent to Spoonman3050. Spoonman3050 is offline.
Phxroadrunners: From when they got back together (minus Sid) in 1997
Spoonman3050:
see I know the pistols and them were new wave at the time, but now the term has been redefined since then

Tags: friends, music, quoted

Current Location: Cave Creek, Arizona

Current Mood:

contemplative

Current Music: Pink Triangle - Weezer

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08 April 2009 @ 12:24 pm

Mega Flickr Upload!!!

COME ONE COME ALL>>>>>>

I am trying to get all of my old photographs out and onto my Flickr account.
I have been doing a mega upload. Come Check it out if you like. Also come see my pics from Miami!!!
I promise I will write about Miami no later than Thursday night, but it may go up tonight.

Have a Flickr account? Add me as a contact!!!
Don't have one? You should get one! :-) I love the vast photo's that I can search through!!!

Here are a few samples of my photo journalism:

(Abandon gas station off the I-40 in New Mexico. Summer 2007. Taken by Brenda James Anshanslin)

(Cave Creek, Arizona. My front yard, Spring 2009. Taken by Brenda James Anshanslin)

(Self portrait, Winter 2008. Kind of reminds me of The Girl With the Pearl Earring.)

(North Miami. Sunny Isles Beach. Spring 2009. My view. Taken by Brenda James Anshanslin)

(North Miami, Sunny Isles Beach. Spring 2009. Taken by Brenda James Anshanslin)

MUSIC>>>>>

The Company of Thieves - Oscar Wilde

It's very RUSHMORE. I love the song!!!

xxox,
Bren

Tags: florida, miami/bahamas, music, photo journalism

Current Location: Cave Creek, Arizona

Current Mood:

chipper

Current Music: The Company of Thieves - Oscar Wilde

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07 April 2009 @ 09:27 pm

Rapid Fire Blog.... Multi-Subject Entry

My twitter Obsession...

I was originaly one of those anti-twitter people. I thought it was a silly thing to have. However, Postsecret, Trent Reznor and other witty people have a twitter so I created one to follow them. Now, I have discovered how awesome this tool is!!!

Instead of having to take the time out to write a full in detail blog about something small yet interesting that happened all I have to do is "tweet". It's flipping sweet!!! I love it. I am sure that I don't "tweet" as often as most but it's pretty neat and I love reading others tweets. It's kind of like reading the first few lines in the news paper. You get the jest and then move on.

This journalist loves it!!!!

Follow me! http://twitter.com/Cadillac_Creek

In Memory...

(Photograph by Ken Core Chicago, IL 2005 John Hancock Building)

I have been missing my baby brother, Britt, a lot lately. I am not sure as to why it's all of a sudden become a weekly thought but I have been missing him more lately. I guess it's because he's come up a lot lately.

For example, I was talking to Ken about something, I don't recall what, Britt and I used to do and when I was finished he said, "I have never met you younger brother." With out missing a beat, I stared off in to the ocean and said, "That's because he died just before I met you."

I know Britt and I fought a lot, be were siblings, but when push came to shove we protected each other and did a lot together. I know I have a half sister, Cheyal (Chip) from my Daddy and a half brother, Dex from my mother (both being older) and I love them very much. However, I grew up with Britt and he was my full blood, we were a like and yet very diffrent. It's still odd that he's not around.

Drugs, outside of weed, are bad. I have lost several friends to drug over doses and related accidents, however, losing a family member, losing a brother, it's unspeakable. I do wish he would have stuck around. He might have found out how awesome life is. I am just devastated that he'll never know.

Roots of My Family Tree...

(Photographed by Brenda James Anshanslin Central Park, New York 2008)

As you already know my name is Brenda James Anshanslin. What you didn't know is that the last name is an Americanised spelling. The correct spelling of my last name is, Aenishanslin. Back in the early 1880's my great grandfather, Charles, fled economicly depressed Switzerland for the States. He arrived here with his brother Karl and together they settled in New York and Americanised the name. For years, little was known about the Anshanslin's other than that.

Throught the power of compuuters I was able to discover that dispite the fact that most of the Aenishanslin's left Switzerland, recently I have discovered that there are still distant relatives living in Switzerland and that we may have originated in Germany (as I have always suspected.) In fact, after looking through the Elis Island record (which only date back to 1892) I discovered Fritz, whom was checked in as from Switzerland, however, under ethic background it said "German". Very exciting. I can't wait to go on my Euro trip of family and self discovery. It will be costly (money wise only please) but worth it.

Here in the States, I still need to return to Boston. Apparently, on my Gram's side of the family they were Red Men. That's very exciting and rich in history. My great, great, great and so on grandparents helped shape the country while it was young and all new.

Does anyone else find their family history interesting? What sites and sorces have you used to reseach your roots?

Who Ya Gonna Call? GHOSTDUSTERS!!!!

Some exciting news!!!!
Come October 2009 I will officialy take over my mothers cleaning buisness, Ghostdusters.
I already have a buisness partner, and taking over my mother's buisness isn't risky because most of the current client's are fimiliar with me, I will have a base client, well base, my buisness partner also knows the buisness well.

Why this will be awesome:

* I will work just 5 days a week (Monday - Friday)
* All weekends and holidays OFF!!
* I will only work 6 hours a day (from 8a - 2p)
* I am THE BOSS!!!
* My client base is just one mile away from my house. (Thus saving on gas)
* Without expanding the buisness I will make three times what I make at the Red Box of Doom and I would have to work 40 hours to get it.
* Did I mention, I am the BOSS?! My partner and I will run the show the way we and our clients want us to.
Each job will be personalised and non-generic. I love it!!!!
* It will free up time for me to continue my journalism, attend school, travel, pay off debit and continue to achieve goals!!

What Will Suck:

* Adjusting to cleaning houses 5 days a week.
* Having to follow my income and taxes closely.
* Training quality housekeepers (should we expand)
* Buisness expensses.
* The fact that I'll have to continue to work for Target at a minimum of 32 hours a week to maintain my insurance until I find a independant policy.

I am excited though. I know it's cleaning houses but I would be the captin of my ship! I think it will be good for me.
Me, a CEO? Weird.

Ok I think that's good enough for now.

I promise, the next blog will indeed be about Miami!!!!

Oh and lastly, I am sad....
The Cubbies lost in extra innings.

xxox,
Bren

Tags: britt, cubbies, family, ghostdusters, twitter

Current Location: Cave Creek, Arizona

Current Mood:

awake

Current Music: Eminem - We Made You

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06 April 2009 @ 10:36 pm

Poolhall Junkie... Road to Poolhall Dominance... or at least Win a bet.

MY RETURN TO THE POOLHALL: THIS IS HARDCORE...

Sunday, Sunday, Sunday. No, I didn't watch Monster Trucks and GIANT mechanical robots crush cars. Amanda S. (better known as "Crazy Amanda) and I went to my old stomping grounds. River City Pockets.

River City Pockets and I go way back. I rember the first time I went there... (PREPARE FOR SHORT, BUT PASSION FILLED FLASHBACK)

I was 16 and I had been swiming with several of my friends (the original "Creekers") and my friend Jesse had asked me if I wanted to go with him and his then girlfriend, Jesse, to River City Pockets to shoot pool. I was an adventurous gal and was always looking to do things I had never done before. (In fact I think I have gotten worse, but that's a good thing) so I was totally in!! We arrived and the place was packed. It was a pretty good sized place with a bar in the center and a case where shiny new pool cues could be sold. There were three quarter tables an each side of the bar and 16 9' foot tables evenly spread about the room. We had to put our names on a wait list. After, what seemed like an eturnity, our name was called. We played on table 8. I watched the first fiew games of 8-ball. I was trying to figure out how to play. Then it was my turn, after a really crappy break (some things never change) my friends were there to teach me the ropes, I had a closed bridge, had no idea what I was doing but I loved the clacking of the balls, the sound of the ball sinking into the pocket, the rush. Billiards was an instant addiction. I was hooked like a junkie is to meth.

I began watching every pool tournament, I could on ESPEN and ESPN 2, learning what worked and what didn't. It was like some weird class project. River City was my classroom, the pool tournaments my textbook and the long afternoons spent in the pool hall (when I should have been sitting in my history class at Cactus Shadows) was my homework. The test came when I returned to River City at night, where I could show off what I had learned and play for table time. I lived pool, I mean I LIVED it. On average I more than likely spent 8 hours a day at least 4 times a week at River City. I was there two times in one day!! I never really gambled for money. Back then the place was always packed at night, so I would always play for a table. I guess you could call it gambling, since I took their table when I won. I always played for table 16, in the back corner. At the time it was the best table. I was a true regular. I should have just gotten a job there, I was there so much. It only took two months for me to be better than my friends. After three, I no longer loss a table. I did this for about 6 months. Then I dropped out of school (GED) and because I had enrolled in college and had a full time job I only played 3 times a week and only at night.

Several things occured at the same time and I began to play pool less and less and less. Before I knew it a month had gone by before I played, then 2, the 3, then 4 and each time it became harder and harder to get back to were I was.

Even when Ken came a long, I hardly ever played because I wasn't even close to his calibure.

FAST FORWARD TO PRESENT DAY... (Or Around that time)

After shooting pool with Ken (player rated as an 8 almost 9) I decided to bet him that in one years time I could beat him consistantly on my own. This was a White Russian and Coors Light charged bet, that was quite foolish. However, I am not one to back out of a bet.

I hadn't really, however, felt motivated to work on my bet because no one ever wants to shoot pool with me. All my old friends won't play me because they are still under the impression that I am good and don't fill like sitting through most of the games, others are still afraid of River City because there used to be a lot of bar fights and others think it's boring.

Everything changed, however, after Ken and I played pool together (we were on a mission that you'll read about in a later blog). I hadn't had as much fun playing pool since I first began. It was fun again! Suddenly I got the drive back, I was hooked again! I was studying every shot he made. His stance, his ticks, the way he struck the cue, where he struck the cue and the stroke. I was a student and he was unknowingly my teacher, and we were kind of Bonnie and Clyde because we were there to hustle. It was a rush, we had a good ploy and we put on a good show. Bottomline, I was off the wagon and needed another fix.

Thus on Sunday, Amanda and I coughed up $5 each to rent the table for 4.5 hours and each had a drink. I taught her the rules of 9-ball and we were on our way. She decided to keep score, after taking a quick 3-1 lead over me. I was intent on being able to break, so I broke every game but three. Man, I am shitty at breaking. It was bad through all 16 games. On a bright note, on the very last game, I sunk 2 balls and kind of spread the balls around the table. I was trying to play smart pool all night. Amanda kept getting on my case, "Why so serious? Your problem may be that your not having enough fun." I was having fun, I was just also very busy trying to study my mistakes and re-learn the angles and strokes. I was focused on simple pool. After she took a 5-1 lead over me, I knew it was time to get serious. I was looking really bad. I won two games in a row through pure luck. In fact most of my wins early on were pure luck. It was the final 3 games.

After, some weird Colimbine kid asked if he could play me a game and I let him win so that he would be bored and walk away with out busting out the black trench coat, I was on my game. Now I am sure that had I played Ken, I would have never had a chance after the break but, all of a sudden I started to run the table. Oh man, it was great. It started really small. First I did 3 in a row. I was pretty excited about that modest number, because I have been having a rough time insuring I give my self a next shot. The next game I did four in a row and even snuck in a bank shot. The final game was almost perfect! I not only sunk two on the break, but I ran 5 in a row. That is freakin' awesome for me!! I mean you have no idea!! I did one bank shot and this one were the ball is kind of in the center of the table about a foot awat from the rail with the cue on the other end into the corner pocket. I was thinking, "Sweet, my old shot (it's a hard shot but I used to pump them out like it was the most simple shot in the world) I even gave myself a great leave on the 8. Then... I fucked-up on the EASY shot!! MAN! Amanda even said, "That's what you get for being cocky." I never even spoke from the break on, until I missed the 8. FUCK. I still won, because after sinking the 8 Amanda missed the 9, but still. Had I been playing Ken or Kalen I would have been dead in the water and all that I had achieved would have been nothing because I screwed up on the easy shot!! Grr. So on Thursday, they have their tournaments. I am going to go and study the players, shoot some pool myself, more than likely by my self and continue my journey. I had fun though!!!

MY POOL HALL GOALS:

* The Break
* My Stroke
* Continue to see/look beyond the cue.
* Use the rails, they are your friend.
* Did I mention the BREAK.
* Ensuring a great leave.
* Where the cue stops shouldn't be a surprise.
* Play in a 9-Ball tournament.
* Win my bet.
* Buy a HUSTLER shirt (haha just kidding... it'll be a wife beater.)

I figure if I practice at least twice a week at a minimum of 4 hours I can make something of myself.

Well, I was supposed to head off to bed hours ago. I have work at 6AM which means I have to get up at 4:30ish.
Sorry for the lack of spell check and story related pictures.

More blogs coming soon!

xxox,
Brenda

Tags: friends, poolhall junkie, target

Current Location: Cave Creek, Arizona

Current Mood:

sleepy

Current Music: Pulp - This Is Hardcore

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01 April 2009 @ 11:17 pm

If only it were real...

Hello everyone!!!
I am finally home from my trip to Miami.
I am really jet lagged and don't feel like writing a huge entry so I offer you this cute little bit.
So, upon my return I wanted to see one of my best friends... my lovely Compaq Presario Laptop! I have missed her bitterly!!! Haha!
Writing in a paper journal is fine, it comes truly naturally to me, however, a paper journal can't tell me where the nearest poolhall is. Nope, it sure can't.

As you can imagine, after being gone for nearly a week, ones e-mail box can get mighty full. Below is an e-mail sent to me. If it were a real job, I would totally quit Target right now to build something new.

Dear whom it may concern,
Bored? Poor? Lonely? Not if you take up this opportunity to join a company on the verge of the cutting edge of paper! Hi, I'm Michael Gary Scott. I've been working in paper for the last fifteen years and with paper since I was eight. As the manager of Dunder Mifflin, Scranton I learned two things: everything about the paper business and that Dunder Mifflin is a suckee company. I'm taking that expertness and creating The Michael Scott Paper Company.
This is your chance to join the ranks of people that have made millions selling paper: Robert Dunder, the Hearst family, those people that make counterfeit money, future me... I cannot promise success, but I will promise you the best effing time of your life!!! Because at the Michael Scott Paper Company we're not just a company or a family, we're a family company made up of people that aren't related.
The choice is clear: choose life. Choose the Michael Scott Paper Company.
Sincerely,

Michael Gary Scott
CEO, Founder, Boss

I really need a second job at the very least. I kind of way over extended myself in Miami and now I have to play catch up!

FOCUS:

Things I really need to get started on!!!

* Shooting pool at least once a week.
* Finding a second job.
* Fixing Esme (the Cadillac)
* Learn the bloody piano, pratice at least once a week.
* Learn German.
* Get my credit cards back down to zero!!!
* Work on my book at least once a week.
* Buy my Berretta gun.
* Buy a bed (the sofa just doesn't cut it!)
* Watch at least one new movie a week (for Christ sakes I am paying for Netflix and have had the same damn movie for a year!!!)
* Update my flickr account once a week.
* Find a photograph to enter into the Cave Creek art contest.
* Figure out how to make the $90 to sign up for the breast cancer walk!

If anyone has any idea's as to how I can achieve these listed items send me a message!!!!
I am staying mighty positive about my mon-ay sistuation but... I am honestly starting to run out of idea's!!!

Tags: goals, mon-ay issues, the office

Current Location: Cave Creek, Arizona

Current Mood:

sleepy

Current Music: With Me - Sum 41

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24 March 2009 @ 11:17 pm

RANDOM NEWLY DISCOVERED SONG

Tags: music

Current Location: Cave creek, Arizona

Current Mood:

contemplative

Current Music: With Me - Sum 41

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20 March 2009 @ 11:24 pm

UPDATE...

Hmm Nicole is wearing a very loose fitting dress... hmmm.
Really, I am starting to sound like Perez Hilton or something...
I should stop reading his blog, it's brain washing me.

The scene where Mia and Sami were at the church and they both said they shouldn't have come was kind of cute in a sad little way.
EJ and Sami, so still love eachother.. MURPHY do your best to be anti-EJAMI I can take it, why because I know better.

Mia and Will the new wanna be Bell and Shawn? I think so, somehow the only time NuWill doesn't get on my nerves is when he's with Mia. Otherwise, please someone put that kid in a politically correct time out!!!

Tony, is straight up evil. Kind of reminds me of the days he switched Kristens birth control with sugar pills and later faked his death and made it look as if John did it. So ... really, I am supposed to belive that was Andre? Yeah right, Tony all the way. One day that guy will be the "Phoenix" becasue as they are about to kill him off, we all know he'll be back.

Phillip and Steph, used to be cute. However Phillips constant douchebaggery is just far too much.

Bo + visions = not even worth talking about.

Lexie was whitty today and I liked it!!!

NOTE TO ZOMBIE EJ: PLEASE, PLEASE WAKE UP!!!
AND CUT YOUR BLOODY HAIR YOU BLOODY WANKER!!!

I maybe missing some stuff but I am sleepy and had a dreadful day... Days was my only highlight.

Oh and anyone watching Life?
Awesome show if not, you should really catch it!!

xxox,
Bren

Tags: days of our lives, ejami

Current Location: Cave Creek, Arizona

Current Mood:

crappy

Current Music: Jay Leno - Chris Cornell - Scream

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20 March 2009 @ 11:18 pm

I have a Twitter account.

http://twitter.com/Cadillac_Creek

I know, I know.
I am lame, I have a Twitter account.
I like reading some, what is it called tweets?
Post Secrets is one of my faves.
Any how if you have one add me ... or follow me?
I am really new to this... gosh I sound old.
LOL.

I've had a really crappy week, so please bare with me.
:-)

xxox,
Brenda

Current Location: Cave Creek, Arizona

Current Mood:

crappy

Current Music: Days of Our Lives

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19 March 2009 @ 09:46 am

Kristen Stewart... Bitch?

I found this on my fave gossip bloggers site, the one the only Perez Hilton... What!!! he's funny!!!!
Any way I found this little clip funny!!!
I am still going to see Adventureland... it looks funny, there are a slew of SNL cast members, the same people from Super Bad made it and the best part is RYAN RENOLDS!!!

Have no idea what Adventure Land is? Here's the trailer...

Lastly... PUNK ROCK!!!

A non-video entry later today.

xxox,
Bren

Tags: movies, music, punk rock

Current Location: Cave Creek, Arizona

Current Mood:

rejuvenated

Current Music: Jeremy - Pearl Jam

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17 March 2009 @ 01:28 am

Top Of the Mornin' To Ya!

Happy St. Patricks Day!!!!!

I found my St. Patrick's Day Horoscope...

Reed (October 28 - November 24)
St. Patrick is showering you with love, romance and adventure this year. Be sure to take a short trip within the next few days. A change of scenery will result in an extraordinary stroke of luck. If you’ve been looking for love, you could find it in a nearby town. What begins as a casual conversation could quickly evolve in an all-night heart-to-heart. Don’t bother to couch your feelings in polite terms or hide your guilty pleasures; your candor is part of your appeal. In the event you’re already in a relationship, this would be a great time to encourage your mate to go back to school or write a novel.

You can find your's here http://www.tarot.com/st-patricks-day/st-patricks-day-2009-horoscopes?feature=h-nug-celtic-scopes&

I think that it's funny because... I leave for Miami and the Bahama's in just one week!!!
Oh and guess what!?!?
Burn Notice just started filming season 3 in Miami. I hope I can catch some of the filming!!! That would be sweet!!!

Tags: burn notice, irish, miami/bahamas

Current Location: Cave Creek, Arizona

Current Mood:

restless

Current Music: Lady Gaga - Fooled Me Again, Honest Eyes

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16 March 2009 @ 11:07 pm

Slave to Wage....

How much would I love to say "DAMN THE MAN!!" right now?
I really can't stand my job more than 90% of the time.
I can't stand the work ethic of my fellow clothing managers,
more than half the staff hates me because I make them work hard, but they
prefer to regard to me as a bitch and tattle tale on me with every turn.
I have been ganged up on, so in return I have ganged up on them.
Sadly, because I don't want to except the sub-par work standards, I believe I am
in the melting pot of those who Target is trying to fire. Yup, I am pretty sure that's were I am.

How do I know this? Among, many, many things, the first thing I was attacked on
was my appearence. For those of you who don't know, I work for the Corp. RED BOX OF DOOM,
better known as Target. At Target the dress code is, a neat and clean red shirt, kakki pants, close toed shoes
and a name tag. Today I was told that something I need to do is assesorise among other things. Here's how this went.

BOSS LADY: "Well, you need to wear more casual shoes."
ME: ::PUZZLED LOOK::
BOSS LADY: "Do you know what I mean?"
ME: ::SHAKES HEAD NO::
BOSS LADY: "More girly shoes. You could also aer some ear rings, maybe a necklace. You know you wear your hair down a lot and your part is always in the center. Your hair could really make you stand out. Maybe you could wear it in a bun and add some barretts or something. Also that center part... you should do a zig-zag and mess it up a bit...you wanted me to be burtally honest..."
ME: :::WTF FACE::

What the hell does she mean by girly shoes?!?!
Oh, I bet she wants me to wear those ballet flats that are all the rage.
I am sorry but I actually work during my shifts and I need to wear real shoes.
Also I have had my Chucks for over ten years and they look like they are hardly a year old!!!
Finally, I only own high heels, Doc Martens, Airwalks and Coverse shoes.
I am not about to wear high heels to work!!!
WTF is wrong with my hair being parted down the center? I like my hair down the center.
I often don't have time to get all dolled up for work and I don't wear jewlery because I don't want to get caught on a rack or hanger! I couldn't believe the conversation.

There was a lot that happened during that meeting, some of it was good, but there was a lot of stupid stuff. Basically, I learned that they are working hard to get me fired. Because I know the process, I figure to have 30-60 days. That's just great.

This is not a good time to lose my job. I could try a transfer, I could pull the good old, step down, there are a few things that I can think of doing to keep the job without getting fired. I wrote down everything se told me that I am doing wrong, and I fully plan on adjusting everything on the list, however, I am fully aware, that none of it will matter because they are just looking for reasons to fire me. I am also so tired of Target trying to turn me into someone I am not, for allowing sub par employee's to remain at the store for so long, for bashing me for not being "team orientated" well, maybe I would want to work with the "team" aka my peers if they actually worked. I don't want to help them if by helping them they really mean, doing it for them and making them look good. I would much rather work alone with no help.

I am going to have some of my friends help me develope a really awesome resume and I hope to return to the service station business. I really enjoyed the work I did there and I only had one boss, one peer and 10 employees. I think I prefer being a big fish in a little pond. I just hope someone is hiring for store managers and that I will be chosen.

In the meantime, I will only bitch about my crappy peers here on my blog and I will continue to wear my hair however I want, rather it be parted down the center or not, I will wear whatever shoes I choose, proudly don my chain wallet, wear no make-up and jewlery only if I want to. Target is a JOB NOT A FASHION SHOW!!! I am not moving any higher with the corporation so I am only going to follow the dress code, which is pretty simple. Further more, if I get in trouble for my appearence once again, I will bring the manual out for that.

Sorry about the rant. I will be posting a bunch of pictures tomarrow, so that's something to look forward to!!!!

Your humble rebel without any true cause,

xxox,
Bren

Tags: target, work

Current Location: Cave Creek, Arizona

Current Mood:

pissed off

Current Music: A&E's Paranormal State (Awesome Show!!!)

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08 March 2009 @ 10:17 pm

Rock Da Body, Rock Da Body...

Speed Cost Mon-ay...

Well, I am a bit pissed off. On Thursday, I was racing down to Beth "The Queens" house. I was going there with a slew of cleaning supplies and I was going to help her deep clean her kitchen in preperation for her oldest brother's daughter, Allyson, first birthday. On my way there I watched a motorcycle cop catch me with his radar. He pulled me over said I was going 58 in a 45. It was the first ticket I've had in over 8 YEARS!!! Bloody Hell!!! I can go off to driving school and la, la, la, however, as it turns out the ticket itself cost less than the bloody class!!! It's not a ton but still, it's $171 for the ticket and $180 for the class. On the brightside it's no longer an 8 hour course, it's now 4 and I can do it over the internet. Blah, I really didn't want to spend the money!! At least Beth's kitchen looked really awesome and Dan and his wife got all inspired and gave the kitchen a mini face lift by painting all the cabinets. I suppose all was not lost.

Viva La TaTa's...

So I am going to be doing the 3-day, 60 mile breast cancer walk here in Arizona!!! I am very excited!!! It's on my Mission 101 list (see tags on the left) and I will be helpping a casue much bigger than I am. I haven't registered yet because it cost $90 and I was waiting for my pay check. Sadly because of the speeding ticket, I may have to put that off for one more week. However I have been training for a week!! I have been walking 1-2 miles a day!! I know it doesn't sound like a lot but for someone who hasn't really been walking it's great. I would do more, but I can only find time to walk at night and up until tonight it's been dark.

The moon was really full tonight and it was blanketed by thin, soft high clouds. I began my walk aroun 6:45 and came home sometime around 8. It was such a lovely night. I just aimlessly wondered around my nieborhood. The air was really crisp, it felt more fall like than spring. I loved it though. I found these little streets where all of the houses were each uniquely diffrent. Next time I will take a camera with me. I know that houses were older Creek homes because they were all so tiny and diffrent from one another. I don't know, sometimes I think the light of the moon romantices things.

Oh and I picked out the shoes I want for the walk!!!

They are some awesome Reebok's that cost $110 (damn.) but they are designed in a manner that just by walking you will tone your legs and butt!! Well, I am so in, plus they come in black!!! They are called EasyTone Go Outside you can check them out at this link: http://growabrain.typepad.com/growabrain/images/speeding_ticket.jpg

As soon as I am registered I will post a link so that maybe you guys could donate a buck or two. Our team name will be Viva La TaTa's and currently there are 6 of us! We each need to raise $2,300. Originally I was freaking out about the dollar amount. $2,300 is a lot of money to me!! However, the people in charge of the walk broke it down into smaller numbers. For example, this means that I just need 23 people to give me $100. Currently that seems unlikely but if some of you guys and my friends can throw in a couple of bucks, or quarters, I will be at least started. I haven't got it yet but apparently we get a book that tells us all kinds of ways we can earn the money. I think those things will be fun!!! I can't wait to get started on earning the money!!! If your interested in doing the walk you can visit the site and find out when your is happening!!! Don't worry I'll donate to your team!!! www.the3day.org/

She's Photogenic...

Ok so I know I posted that meme where I must take pictures of whatever you want!!!
I have only taken half the pictures, because I haven't had time to shoot my room. So they are in progress!!!
If anyone else wants me to take pictures of things in my life just let me know!! I will shoot them tomarrow after work!!!
In the meantime here are a few samples and a link to us shooting a couple of weekends ago!!!

You can see the rest here at my flickr account http://www.flickr.com/photos/cadillac_creek/sets/72157614589315969/
The ones that I am not in I took!!! I think some of those shot's are pretty cool. The lighting was sweet!!!

Much love to everyone!!!!
Sorry for the long blog!!!
PS.... THANK GOD THE CUBS ARE PLAYING BALL AGAIN... NOT WELL BUT THEY ARE PLAYING!!!!

xxox,
Bren

Tags: breast cancer walk, breasts, cadillac, cubbies, mission 101 list, shooting

Current Location: Cave Creek, Arizona

Current Mood:

sleepy

Current Music: REM - Man on the Moon

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01 March 2009 @ 10:41 pm

We Live In A Beautiful World, Yeah We Do, Yeah We Do...

Ask me to take a picture of any aspect of my life that you're interested in (not that you're being nosy or anything ;D ) - it can be anything from the house I live in to my favorite shoes. Leave your choice here as a comment, and I will reciprocate by taking the pictures and posting them as an LJ entry. Ask as for as many as you want

Hello everyone!!!
I know, I know I haven't posted in nearly a month!!!
As most of you know, although I haven't been posting, I have indeed been reading your entries!!!
Outside of my dreadful job, my life has been bloody fantastic!!!
I mean it!! I honestly can't believe how amazing it has been.
I am going to be in Miami, Florida and on a three day cruise to the Bahama's from March 26th to the 31st.
I can hardly wait! I have always wanted to go to the Carribean. My Gram's used to talk about it all the time.
It was her most fave place to be, other than home in New York. Moreover, Miami!?!
It's also on my Mission 101 List!
Come on can we say Miami Vice and Burn Notice? Enough said.
Speaking of Burn Notice, I am so sad that it all comes to an end on Thursday. Things have really been heating up!!!

Today I went shooting with my friends Beth, Chris, RJ and Dan.
Man did we have a blast!!! I shot at least 6 diffrent hand guns and shot guns.
It was a bloody good time and the weather was beautiful.
I can't wait for April, that's when we are going to go next. I hope on that trip Ken, Kalen, Mike and his wife Nancy can come!!!
I have loads of photographs from that venture and will post them tomarrow!!!

I have been working out to get in shape for the trip.
Yeah, the hinny is still small and bumpy. Getting old bites.
The tummy however, that's shaping up... I'd rather have the hinny look good.

Oh and lastly, Beth taught me how to make fried chicken!!!

As Ice Cube would say.... "Today was a good day..."

Question:

Does anyone have a copy of Garbage Version 2.0 that they could zip and put on one of those mega upload things for me?
My copy is toast and it's my 6th copy!!! I can't afford to buy it again right now and would love to listen to it!!!
I have a lot of music, I'll trade someone.

Tags: mission 101 list, photo journalism, shooting, working out

Current Location: Cave Creek, Arizona

Current Mood:

sleepy

Current Music: Sometime Around Midnight - The Airborne Toxit Event

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06 February 2009 @ 03:46 am

Me in A Coors Spot! [sort of..]

Go to this site:

http://coorslightcoldzone.com/

Then when asked type in this code

44712

BEHOLD!!!!

Or (if it works) watch the video below:

You may now make fun of me!!!
This was done in Tampa Bay, Florida at Raymond James on January 31, 2009
It was at the Super Bowl Experiance!!! I had a blast there and will post photographs from that day soon!!!

xxox,
Bren

Tags: coors light, me being dumb, super bowl 2009

Current Location: Cave Creek, Arizona

Current Mood:

silly

Current Music: The Office

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04 February 2009 @ 06:10 pm

25 Random Things... [stolen from facebook]

Rules: Write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you.

1. I am going to Tampa Bay, because I want to be part of sports history.

2. People always under rate me and question my talents... little do they know that they only encourage me to push harder to prove them wrong.

3. I fear I am doomed to work in a crappy retail job forever.

4. As confident as I am; I constantly second guess myself. (I put on a good front though ;-)

5. I would be willing to spend $1,000 for just one ticket into Wrigley Field to see the first Chicago Cubs World Series in over 100 years!!!

6. I secretly love fashion.

7. When I was little I used to sign everything, "Keep this! I'm gonna be famous someday"

8. I have come to the realization that I will never win the lottery. The reason? Because I would donate half of it to charity. Those who would do something truly good with their fortune never seem to win.

9. It may take a while, but I almost always forgive people. Mostly because I am dumb, because my forgiveness almost always burns me. I never forget what the person did to me but I move on. If I don't forgive the person, it means that they were a real piece of work.

10. I collect vinyl records.

11. I would rather have a life than a living.

12. I honestly believe that my life has a greater purpose than I am aware of.

13. I am a simply dreadful speller.

14. I believed in Kurt Warner when it wasn't cool or popular to do so.

15. I pray every night before I fall asleep. (And you thought I was some deranged goth kid)

16. I often don't notice when someone has a crush on me. I always think, "Cool new friend!" I guess I am slightly retarded when it comes to stuff like that. People should be more up front about stuff like that! Really.

17. I am deathly afraid of falling. It's so bad that I don't like being picked up off the ground more than a few inches. It freaks me out!

18. I used to think I was this great singer....oh, I am so not!

19. I have only been in love once; he was the only one who didn't love me. Alanis Morissette would call that Ironic. LOL.

20. I have been writting two books. One for over 12 years and the other 4. Neither are close to being finished.

21. I love all types of music from all over the world!

22. Even though I am a writer, I can't stand reading books. I am trying to amend that.

23. I always look at the little picture and then zoom out and look at how it will effect the big picture. (A lot of people can't stand that)

24. I used to want nothing more than be a good house wife.

25. I am far to honest for my own good.

Tags: meme

Current Location: Cave creek, Arizona

Current Mood:

sleepy

Current Music: Burn Notice [freaking awesome show]

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31 January 2009 @ 01:09 am

In The Cold, Cold Winter.

Just a really quick note!
I am in Florida!!!
I am hoping to enjoy the Super Bowl Experience tomarrow, the Celebrity/Pro's game and
maybe I will visit Clearwater Beach!!!

I loved my layover in Chicago.
I flew into O'Hare and I got to see the city blanketed in snow.
It was dazzleing. (Edward Cullen style)
I loved seeing Chicago in the winter, I never had before.
It was bloody cold. 11 degress with wind chills that made it feel like -5.
Yet I proceeded to smoke 4 Newport 100's and enjoied my beloved city... from the airport.
I ordered 2 Chicago Style hot dog and worked a little more on my book.

I was in Gate B 18 and in my venture to find a Chicago style hotdog I ran into a location
that brought back memories from a few years back. It inspired me to write.

The book is still coming along slowly. However, since I am here in Florida, I can get my old notes from three years
ago. My goal is to have the bloody thing completed by years end. I think the chapter I started today will be the last
chapter of progress. I believe I am going to move on to the conclusion. I just haven't decided what direction I want it to be.
Do I want a tragic ending, a realilistic ending or a chick flick ending? This is going to be my true hang up. So I pose a question.

What kind of book are you more likely to read?

a) A book that has a more real/life like ending. (like anything written by Douglas Coupland, such as Hey Nostradamus! or The Notebook)

b) A book that has a tragic or sad ending. (like most classics.)

c) Or the feel good ending (Like anything from the Twilight series)

What do you prefer to read?
I hope some of your responses can help me complete the story.

Well, I better go off to bed!

xxox,
Bren

Songs of the Day:

Angels Wings - Social Distortion
Microphone - Coconut Records
Fuck Was I - Jenny Owen Youngs

Tags: books, chicago, florida, journalism, super bowl 2009, the sexton

Current Location: Lakeland, Florida

Current Mood:

sleepy

Current Music: A Dustland Fairytale - The Killer's

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29 January 2009 @ 11:59 am

No, I didn't Die...

Ok I know, it's been forever and a day, right?
I am so very sorry.
I have to make this a really quick post but,
I am headed to Tampa Bay tomarrow!!!
I know, super dorky fan girl here!
Hey, I did it for the Cubbies, why not the Cards?
(Besides they originaly hail from Chicago)
I can't wait.
The best part?
I have a 4 hour lay over in Chicago!!!!
I am going home, even if it's only for 4 hours at O'Hare!

Um--
a ton more has happened and is going on but I really have to finish packing and cleaning my pad!
I swear, I will update more often.
This includes my poor flickr account!!!
I will get back into my game and stride, I love you all!!!

xxox,
Bren

Finally

GO KURT WARNER AND ARIZONA CARDINALS!!!!!!!!!!!
SHOCK THE WORLD!!!!!!

Tags: arizona cardinals, chicago, cubbies, kurt warner, nfl

Current Location: Cave Creek, Arizona

Current Mood:

ecstatic

Current Music: Only In Dreams - Weezer

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17 January 2009 @ 10:38 pm

Spotlight On Me and I am Ready to Preform!

GO CARDINALS!!!!!

Well, it's been a very interesting week!!
After RJ and I disolved our relationship, things became strange and weird.
He's been slowly, and I mean slowly, moving his things out.
Yesterday, I came home and apparently he came by to grab his clothing and just decided to fall asleep at my place.
Then when I came home I began searching Craigslist for Cardinal tickets and he just kept trying to give me a back rub.
Yeah, weird. I eventully told him I was going to take a nap and he left. It was just weird to me. I know he's hurting and all but it was weird that he just decided to crash at my house. Anyone else think this is weird? We are friends and all but, it was just strange.

So while RJ was trying to do whatever it was that he was trying to do, I found Cardinal playoff tickets!!!!
After 6 days of trying to get myself into that game I finally found tickets!!! The guy wanted $200 for two tickets.
The catch was that the seats were in diffrent rows of the same section. RJ will be in row 10 seat 24 and I will be in row 20 seat 5.
They were only marked up $50 and he had them printed at a Ticketmaster location with us present to prove they were real.
I say great deal. Plus, 5 is my lucky number. I always get seat 5 somehow. I feel really good about Kurt Warner and the Cards advancing!

(Kurt Warner)

I am dying to get to the game!!! This is history and it will be my first playoff!!!
Also, it could be the last time I'll get to see Kurt Warner play. There is still a very good chance that the Cardinals won't re-sign him.
Moreover, if the Cardinals win the Super Bowl (that would be amazing) I honestly believe that Kurt Warner will retire.
I just had to see him and this amazing team in person play just one last time!
This is going to be a bitchin' game!

Return of the Cadillac...

So Craigslist proved to be my best friend this week! Last Sunday I found myself a car and bought it!
It's a 1979 Cadillac Coupe De Ville.
I have always wanted one! I just love this car! My Daddy used to have one.
I was raised in that old car and became infactuated with Cadillac's.
I got the car at a great deal! $1,400. She is a really weird color, it's like a blueish, sea foam green color.
The inside of the car is a really strange blue color and the top is white. She's missing a deck and a few little things here and there.
However, she runs like a champ, has new tires, the heater and a/c work and I just love her.
I named her, like I do all my cars.
Her name is Esme,
I wanted to name her after my Grandmother (my she rest in peice) name was Edna.
I thought the name was a little to dated and old sounding. So I searched my mind for female names that started with "E"
and came up with Esme, the "mother" figure from Twilight. It fits her well.

So below is a picture of A 1979 Cadillac Coupe De Ville. This IS NOT my car. However this is, aside from color, what Esme looks like. I will take some pictures of her as soon as I get a chance and post them straight away!!!

The Closing Bell...

It's been a pretty interesting week for me! I am way over extended on my line of credit but I hope to
rebound really soon!!! I am going to be posting things to sell here really soon and I am going to give my lj and myspace friends first dibs before I head off to eBay. I don't have anything too special or amazing but perhaps you or someone you know would be interested. I'll keep you all posted!

Oh and I changed my layout! It's time to start saving for my grand travels and adventures!!

xxox,
Bren

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07 January 2009 @ 10:40 pm

It's Official

RJ and I offically broke up today.
It was a full two years for us.
Most of it was basically like having a roommate.
He cried when I told him I didn't want to work on it anymore.
I felt bad but I just can't do this anymore.
A whole slew of people are never going to speak to me again.
This will be like a divorce, I just hope it doesn't turn bitter.

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06 January 2009 @ 04:17 am

When A Friendship Is More Work Than A Good Time

Friendship Isn't Supposed To Be A Shitty Full-Time Job

Have you ever had that one friendship where you just feel like you are putting in an awful lot of time and effort into the whole deal?
You know that friendship were you spend more than half your time apologizing for making a joke that they took far to personally?
You know the friend that is just "dying" to go out or is always so "bored" and "down for anything" and the very second you invite them out
they suddenly have something better to do, or they're tired, sick, lalala?

I often come across this type of friend. I believe this happens to me because I have such a wide range of friends.
For every ten new friends I find one of these friends. They are borderline frienenemey and total flake. My newest said friend,
former enemy Guy, you know my evil boss from when I worked the front lanes. Yeah, when I came back to work after my month
long leave of absence, I thought I would start a new and wipe the slate clean for everyone. Apparently, he had the same idea,
because somehow we became friends. Quite honestly, I think it originally happened because he was/is highly interested in
my newly acquired boobies (but what male isn't). It would be cooler if it was because I can forgive and forget rather quickly, or that
I challenge him to do better with his life, that I am a good confident, nah... it's because I am a good to have on a closing team and I
have boobs. I am so willing to bet money on this. I'll do $600 flat right now!

I was surprised as all hell when he showed up at the Freeze and Burn. He always Chris, Beth and I the impression that we weren't cool
enough to hang out with. I mean even tonight at work, Beth and I went to the Yard House, he went to Fridays with the losers, The Rat, Borat and Gang. Sadly I bet they would have invited Beth if I hadn't been there, I felt kind of bad about that. I know Beth wants to become more involved with others. However, because I make such waves with The Rat and so on, I will never get an invite to that group. Which goes to show, what the hell kind of friend is that.

The whole reason for this blog? Honestly I need to write something and vent about a pet peeve of mine. Ok so, tonight was kind of funny at work because Guy was working on some sort of project but every time some one asked where he was, over the walkie, he's reply was either the main office (TMSC), his office or the backroom. Pretty much anywhere and everywhere off stage. It was funny to all of us. so we made a game out of it and bet where he'd answer next. I picked the backroom and Scott said TMSC. Well, when Guy answered TMSC, Scott threw both his fists in the air celebrating his correct guess. I said over the walkie, "We had bet's on that... Scott won" and someone answered over the walkie laughing "Good one!" It was funny. Apparently, Guy didn't find the humor in it and talked sternly and down to me and attempted to allude to the idea that I wouldn't complete my job on time. He hasn't spoken to me like that sense I worked the front lanes. I handheld his over reaction calmly and was more pissed that he thought I wouldn't complete my job, I thought, "Not only can this ass hole Handel a joke, but he never has any faith in my work." So there is pet peeve number one, please don't question my work. If I don't have a handle on it I will let you know. I did deserve to be spoken to about the walkie joke, it was a wee bit out of line, I will be first to admit that, but I didn't mean to imply that he wasn't working. There was no need to attack my work.

So from there I opted to avoid him for the rest of the night. I mean for a guy who wants to be friends and made a big deal about me not avoiding him and all this crazy high school bullshit, he sure does work hard to be bloody strange around me. I liked him a whole lot better before the whole, hmm I am going to have to work on a name for that incident. I mean it was more fun. We would talk more about random shit more often and he would help me with the mid-day zones and BS. Yeah, then he had to get all fucking weird on me, it's all bloody queer. So at the end of the night he walked soft lines and sure as shit, he made me re-do the whole shoe department. He wanted me to have al the Converse shoe boxes closed. It's not possible because of how most of the shoes fit and if one is a display shoe, there is no way. Then he was going on about the few "peak-a-boo" shoes, which is where the shoes aren't flat in the box. He never nit-picks over these things, I knew damn well he was doing it only because of the comment I made over the walkie. So, I called him out on it. Instead of saying, "I sure am, this is what you get." or at least a bloody honest answer he lied. I knew he was lying too, he's really bad at it. First he get's this deer in headlight look and then his face get's all sad and depressed, like he's going to get a whipping because he's been caught. It's a very odd and unique reaction. It enraged me because I can't stand being lied to. It's one thing to punish me or get me back, but to lie about it!!! Fuck you!!! I bloody hate liars!!!! If I ask the right questions, I expect a truthful answer. That is the type of friend I keep around. Honest ones and ones who don't flake out and ones who aren't embarrassed to be my bloody friend.

So with this all in mind, I am going to be honest and tell him that we are boss and piss on. No hanging out, no texts, nada. He's to busy trying to be "Joe Cool" and I have no room for that kind of friend. I am so bad about giving people second chances. I will put 20:1 odds on like two months from now me deciding that I was being judgmental and we'll be friends and then a bit later back to this moment. Remember, Tasha, Roy (evil mother fucking bastards who get's his rocks off leaving people in London, UK), Evil Ken, Kristen, Crissy and the list can go on! I am retarded.

In Other News...

I haven't written anything for The Sexton in over a week. I just haven't really had any quiet time to add to each chapter.
I always have someone leaning over me, or it's far too chilly outside or I forgot my notebook.
Shame, I don't want to forget anything, no matter how small the detail.

The Arizona Cardinals, rocked the house last Saturday!!! It was very exciting. I nearly cried when the Colts blew their game.
The Chicago Cubs GM's and owner's have lost their bloody, over stuffed minds!!! I honestly believe they are trying to be losers now!!!

RJ?
No improvement.

Finally, while looking for my story photograph I came across an amazing fortune!!!
I think it describes me to a "T"
It's under the lj cut!!!

( QUICK!!! Follow the White Rabbit.... )

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Posted: 29 April 2009